8's contemplative...
how old does a woman have to be before she can take a compliment without second-guessing the intent of the giver?
just something i ponder...i suffer from that...when someone says something kind about me whether it be a physical attribute, or that i'm a good person, i kinda have this internal "shudder" and then wonder if i deserve it, or if the person has another motivation.
i wish sometimes i could just BE. just take everything as it comes.
i know, and feel that this deficiency comes from lack of self-esteem coupled with my unparalleled cynicism towards everything and everyone.
also, my lack of confidence rears its ugly head often when i need it (my confidence) most. i simply must be better about this.
that aside...i'm flippin tired. not sleepy but drained...vegetative almost.
i need something/someone(?) to light a fire under me and get me back in the swing of things...not offering, just saying.
posted by eight @ 6:15 PM
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I think it's hard seeing in yourself what others se in you. And I am sure it stems from how we view ourselves in the eyes of others. Sometimes no mater how much you try to just accept what someones says at face-value, there is always that little voice in the back of your mind that goes, "yeah whatever.." or "ok, so why'd they say that?" I think that also has to do with distrust of people b/c, let's face it, people can be false in their intentions. I guess you just have to hope they are being real and just accept said compliment and move one...
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